first blog

dammit that's too close to orange, i guess i'll choose white

yes i'm still sick, i've been inside for two and a half days. it's been kind of rough lately.

Saturday i found out my friend James (who i'm sure i've told you guys about) only has a few months left. his chemotherapy has failed, which has exhausted his options for survival. chances are he won't make it past august. right now, it doesn't seem real to me. i think it's because i haven't seen or talked to him in awile. i see him online sometimes but i'm too afraid. afraid of it becoming reality. it's hard for me to look forward to my summer; when i know as time progresses i will lose a person very close to me.

it's difficult, but i'm coping with it. thank you guys for your continuing support. i love you guys, really, i do.

lets get together soon

-chris